Spirituality + Coaching Burnout.
Recently, I’ve felt very turned away from spiritual, astrology, + coaching stuff
It’s not like there was a main “cause” for this…
I think it gradually happened overtime.
A few weeks ago, I wanted to listen more to my intuition + tune out distractions… so I was consuming much less content on social media
Then this led to really not stressing or caring much about specific manifestations (in a good way)…
As I was focused more on me + my well-being
It felt… very calm, peaceful, & I was content.
Divine masculines are also awakening… which I’ve been feeling heavily
I’ve had symptoms (again) of insomnia, random emotions surfacing, feeling slightly disconnected
Then this past weekend: the energy collectively was turned towards masculines
I felt rage towards the patriarchy.
I was angry at how men didn’t protect my emotions or body growing up… or for women around the world…
& specifically, allowed myself to really feel MAD + resentful at a specific masculine who abused me in my early 20s
I faced him… & actually saw what he truly did to me, that I hadn’t allowed myself to see in the past
The lies, gossip, physical abuse, shame.
I had cleaned up my sacral - releasing the anger towards men being a big part of that. As well as reclaimed my power with men…
Since then… I’ve felt very detached from work + money also
This week… I’ve actually let go of the idea of working to make money… which is still something I’m toying with, as I’m not sure if the energy is just in a transitional period, & I’ll come back even stronger + better than ever before with coaching….
Or if it’s something where I don’t label my “work” as work (like before) - but just see it in a new light
Like “working” simply as a passion, for fun
& then understanding that opportunities + money can manifest at any point in time, from anywhere
For now, I love the idea of “working” being a passion
Vs using work as a means to make money
What I’ve noticed overall since releasing + healing my masculine energy….
Is that I just WANT to be in my feminine.
Not in a way where I’m not doing anything… but in a way where I truly am honoring what I DESIRE everyday
No rules… no “have to”s…. just what I want to do, when I want to do it
I’ve been having to really release a lot of what I’d gathered from other coaches I’ve worked with, or just content on sm in general, around money + work
I’ve been seeing the feminine as the muse - the inspiration - in her life
Not in a: “I have to post on sm today to help people” way
But in a way where: she just IS the inspo
This for me has been a huge realization… as my inner child feels so happy right now
This is what she’s always wanted… to feel inspired by life - by fashion, makeup, decor, art, stories
& this is something no one in my family ever did (definitely breaking that generational chain of working for money)…
I think this has caused me to be disinterested completely in astrology, spirituality, & personal development: for the moment
I don’t care at the moment about the Lion’s Gate portal… what transits are occurring… or what I “should” be manifesting
This personal development world is a big part of me….
Yet… right now… I’m pulled in a new direction entirely
Taking a break from consuming coaching, spiritual, or astrology content…
Adding boundaries to what I want to talk about in convos with other people…
& just following where I’m pulled: finding inspo through influencers with travel, decor, outfits…
Being pulled to specific places: the bookstore, park, coffeeshops…
Just following my heart
- M